Oct
18
2011

Bringing Order to the Home

Photo by Ronnie McKay

I’ve been asked what I was thinking about when I was rushed to the hospital with an apparent heart attack. I wish I could say something valiant. “My children”, “my Lord Jesus”, “world peace” or something.

You know what I was thinking about? Accounting.

No kidding. If you know me personally, you know that I hate accounting. Despise it. For this small business owner, accounting is a necessary evil. I see it as not producing a thing (other than a bill to the IRS), and it drives me batty to spend hours balancing numbers when there is curriculum to write, camps to run, and people to serve.

So experiencing cardiac arrest, why on earth was I thinking of accounting?

Because I was behind on it. Summer is over. By this time of year, all the curriculum is written and the camps are finished. In our busy season, I got behind on the books, just like I do every year. It’s a strange feeling having a ton of cash and a ton of bills, not really knowing how much bottom line you have. It results in indecision and indecisiveness — qualities that ultimately hurt a business. Hate it or love it, accounting must be done.

This had much more to do with keeping my house in order. I have things out of place. My heart was failing me and I was concerned for what I left behind. An accounting mess? Not cool.

Maybe this was valiant, or at least something that was seeping up through my subconsciousness. Consider:

In those days, Hezekiah became ill, and was going to die. And Isaiah, who was a prophet and the son of Amoz, came to him, saying, “Thus says Yahweh, ‘Set your house in order, for you shall die, and not live.’” (2 Kings 20:1)

The Lord isn’t saying I’m going to die anytime soon (thank you!). But I have myocarditis that is taking longer to heal than I want. I get tired easily, I take long naps, taking a walk to the creek with the dog is like jogging around our 2-mile block. My cardiovascular system is not performing as usual as the inflammation of my heart heals. I’m used to running 100 miles per hour, so slowing down well below the speed limit is frustrating.

God is so clever. He has my full attention. I’m putting pieces in place after a busy productive season and praying through His specific calling for me and my family. I believe I’ll be okay, give or take a couple months. My heart is wide open for God’s direction. This is on my heart: bringing order to my home.

(Picture taken by a good friend, Ronnie McKay. She and her husband took a drive into the Colorado mountains last week. Beautiful!)

About Chris Jeub

Chris is the father of 16 children, busily running the family businesses and learning the depths of love along the way.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=799259836 Amy Woolley Pederson

    touching.

  • Tiffany Jenson

    We’re so glad you are going to be okay and on the road to healing Chris.  This article is so true and has really been on my heart lately as well, as I am always feeling like I am 2 steps behind where “I” think I should be.  I need to listen more to where “God” wants me to be.  God Bless!
    The Jenson family of 12
    Elk River, Minnesota

    • http://www.jeubfamily.com Chris Jeub

      We big families get so wrapped up in the hustle and bustle of life that we seldom slow down and seek God’s insight. God bless you, Jensons!

  • Ronald Stauffer

    I’m so glad you are healing up!
    I too have been thinking a lot about putting my house in order.
    I appreciate your thoughts!